I am not a religious person. I've never hid that fact. I think too much to be satisfied with the answer most religious people and officials fall back on: you have to have faith. Faith too often relies on believing things that don't make sense because they are written somewhere in a scroll or tablet.
To a certain extent I believe in experience. If something happens over and over in your life that wish wouldn't happen, perhaps it is because you need to change something about your approach. I try to give people the benefit of the doubt. Maybe they don't mean to be assholes, but if they consistently act like assholes, then chances are they are assholes and won't stop being assholes. Once an asshole, always an asshole.
How's that for an inspirational saying.
I do think about things a lot.
Perhaps that is why I don't consider myself a happy person. Or perhaps that has something to do with me not having lots of friends. I do believe you can overthink things. And I am not a firm believer in absolutes. I realize that contradicts my pronouncement about assholes. But that is more of an opinion than an absolute. I believe it. If an asshole comes along that stops being an asshole I can accept that as an exception.
At least I think I can accept that. Operative word there is "think."
I have a lot of "kick me" moments in my life. I feel resolved about something and then someone comes into my life and initially acts a certain way that makes me doubt my resolve. So I soften. Then they end up doing something that confirms my original assessment and I smack my head or mental kick myself and ask if I will ever learn.
It is hard to blame others for things that you allow and accept from them despite experience.
At least that is what I think. And sometimes it is cast in stone.
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